Friends, are you pinching yourself? It’s a mini-miracle that this Thankful Thursday 02.2020 post is actually coming to you on a Thursday. Crazy, I know! Always happy to link up promptly with Rebecca Jo for her gratitude series but sometimes LIFE has other ideas despite my best intentions.
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THANKFUL THURSDAY 02.2020
As is the case every month, February has had its share of highs and lows. Here are some of the things I gave gratitude for in my “Good Days Start With Gratitude” journal…or in my case, end with gratitude. I always complete my gratitude journal before going to sleep.
This month I was particularly grateful for:
- my mom for always being there for me
- Paul being such a good provider
- possibility (and then reality) of *S*N*O*W*
- Cheyene Rincones, my primary care physician’s assistant
- Kevin getting mom to the ER
- diagnosis for mom (stroke); knowledge is power
- beautiful snowscapes
- snuggles with all my El Paso babies, big and little
- PC asking if I need to fly to be with my mom
- Valerie flying up to KY to care for mom
- pickleball orientation
- sweet phone call from my MIL May
- my brother on his birthday
- therapy is being offered (free) to mom -occupational, physical and speech
- good workout
- mom fell but didn’t get badly hurt
- new blog readers (and old, faithful blog readers!!) – YOU
- clean house
- Alan Jackson concert, yeah, BABY
- survived 4th grade sub job
- fresh mani
- soak in the hot tub
Along about the first week of the month, my mom began feeling ‘funny’ but couldn’t really put her finger on what was wrong. My brother took her to the urgent care clinic and they couldn’t find anything. The next day, Mom was frantic about not feeling well. And had begun talking nonsensically. Unable to complete sentences. Calling my brother by my father’s name. Thinking she was in Missouri where she lived as a child. We thought she was either having a stroke or some kind of nervous breakdown, psychiatric issue. Kevin took Mom to the ER at the only hospital in Lexington with a psychiatric department.
They conducted a CT scan and found no indication of a stroke so sent my mom home again. But she continued to be terribly confused about things. And she had begun saying she couldn’t see well.
I was able to get my mom in to see her retina specialists so my brother, bless his heart, packed Mom up took her for an eye exam. She has pretty severe macular degeneration but nothing had changed since her last visit to the specialist. At her appointment, though, Mom was more confused than ever. In a quick 3-way call between my brother, sister and me, it was decided Mom needed to go back to the ER. This time at the hospital where she is usually seen.
An MRI confirmed that Mom had had a stroke. A left sided cerebral hemisphere cerebrovascular accident, so deep in her brain that the CT scan had not picked it up. My sister was able to drop everything and go to Lexington to help with Mom. She was released after several days in the hospital and qualifies for 3 types of therapy: occupational, physical and speech. Her most noticeable difficulty seems to be in speaking. She cannot remember the names of things or people. And seems to have lost some of her short- or mid-term memory.
We were initially hopeful that Mom would regain her speaking and thinking faculties but I am feeling less optimistic now. It breaks my heart to try to talk with her on the phone. I am never sure she knows who I am. And struggles to tell me simple things like what she ate for dinner or who she ate with. She tried to tell me she was going to watch the Democratic debate but what she was saying sounded more like she was talking about an NCAA basketball game.
Last night, I cried in the dark after PC had fallen asleep because I feel like we have lost our mom. She has always been so bright, so ‘with it,’ so aware of what’s going on in the world, very cognizant of what is going on around her, but now she struggles so. Since my sister has returned home, Mom no longer wants to play Bridge or bingo or go to the dining room to eat. And talking with her on the phone is extremely challenging. My sister took this photo during while she was in Lexington. Mom looks good but kind of wild eyed; she is on the left.
Hoping to go visit in April. Thank you for the sweet words, good thoughts and prayers you have extended my mom.
What things would top your gratitude list for February? Sometimes, it is the little things on a really tough day that mean the most to me. Sunshine. Or rain. Being able to spend the whole day at home with the kitties. Hugs from my grands. I just scrolled up to look at my list again. Funny how almost all of my gratefuls are free…not something you can purchase. That makes me…well, thankful, too!!
The count down to our weekend getaway has begun. I haven’t gotten out the suitcases because that upsets the kitties. But I have begun setting aside the clothes I want to take. Isn’t the anticipation of a trip or a special activity almost palatable?
Thank you for popping in today. PC has the hot tub heating so I am off to get my bathing suit on. Talk to you later!
Hugs and kisses,